I watched the rain fall to the earth matching the tears streaming down my face. It seemed that most days I cried. Something would trigger a memory or a hurt and I would reach for the box of tissue once again.
With such loss and the feelings of betrayal and abandonment, it was only natural to cry. Tears do wash away some stress and the heaviness on our hearts. As I cried, I was able to recognize the reason for these tears so I could begin my journey dealing with such loss.
God not only sees the tears, He cares deeply enough to count them. What a picture of love that my Heavenly Father kept my tears and counted them. He saw each tear drop and placed them in His care.
The problem for me was that it had reached a point of emotional exhaustion so much so that it had overtaken my life. I often told people I should have invested stock in a tissue company! I knew it was ok to cry and for my girls to see me crying sometimes, but I needed to get some help. For a time, it was necessary to take some anti-depressants to get back on level ground. I also choose to seek professional counselling to gain perspective on life and make positive steps to move ahead. I was glad for those resources.
There is another kind of tears. They are tears of joy. As I allowed God to work in me to heal, He turned my tears of sorrow into tears of joy. It wasn’t instant and I still did cry, but there was a steady progress as new victories were won.
Psalm 30: 5b ‘At night we may cry, but when morning comes we will celebrate.’
Recognizing there are many nights in our process, we can also be assured that morning always comes and with that a celebration of life!
You may feel overwhelmed with sorrow and tears right now. I understand. I can guarantee that the tears in this bottle of grief will begin to lessen and morning will come for you as you celebrate in the everyday things.
Life consists of tears of sorrow and tears of Joy. God wants to sit with you as you cry and He also wants you to rejoice in the new steps of your journey.
- As the tears of sorrow flow, begin to process positive solutions
- Understand that God is collecting and counting your tears and wants to help
- What resources do you feel you need to help with your tears of sorrow
- Name two things right know that you can celebrate
- Let’s Celebrate!….YOU CAN DO THIS!